淑慧のDiary~♥

Aug 4, 2008 ♥ 3:44 PM

yst,went down to town to join michelle & gwen for movie,
'prom night'.but i missed the first 20 mins =(
the movie was damn thrilling.somehow some parts of the show
scared the hell outta me.Behind us was a row of bitches
screaming as though they nvr scream before.and the girl
behind me kept kicking my seats.i was like WTF! TSK!
michelle damn funny,there's a part when the whole cinema
was silent,and she's the only one screaming lols..
after the movie we had dinner at hong kong cafe with
sky & co.Next,headed down to whisky bar again to finish
up their bottle.we dian alot of songs but i think
we only sing 1 song..we played heart attack and i joined in..
its so fking funny..we were sweating like hell..
ok first joke was .. sky was slapped by me but he was too
'numb' that he can't even feel a thing lol..
next was our cutie michelle..realli cute haha
she won and its her turn to slap us..
u noe one of ur hand is to be place right on the bottom,
and ur another hand is to slap right?
u noe wat michelle did? she place her hand on the top
and the other hand ready to slap..LOL
if we didn't remind her .. she would have slap her
own hand LOL.. we were laughing like crazy !!!
ok third joke is me me me !! haha
i was so nervous and excited when i won..
i only shout 'hah' without attack haha
they kept making fun of mi lo zhen shi de..
so they said from now on,those who shout heart attack
not counted must shout 'hah' wth lols..
they're realli funny ppl..they make my day =)
though those songs playing kept reminding me of him..
we left at around 2 plus and cab hm..
yst i send him a msg . when i rched home,
i read his reply.my heart suddenly feel numb...
it stop awhile..telling me to
giveee up..............................
i dun wish to face the fact,really..

this afternoon,my dad came in my room and asked me,
'ehh,why jin bao this few days nvr come liao'
my reply is still the same'work not free'..
when he turned his back..my tears rolled down
immediately,i felt my heartache..
next is my mum..i walked to the kitchen.
she told me this'just now dad ask me,you isit
quarrel with jinbao..if not why so long nvr come..'
i said ' ya he very busy working..'and i walked off
can anyone understand my feelings,feel my pain..
im trying hard not to think anymore,trying hard to
give up but WHY .. WHY ppl around me kept reminding me
of him..i wan to escape from this reality i wanna disappear..
i once gone thru a 2yrs+ rs .. a suffering one,a failed one
and then i met him.i thought i could settle down with him
WHY....!!!why god is taking my happiness away again n again..
what did i do wrong to deserve all this ?
Did i owe anyone in yr previous life??!!
can anyone understand? its not easy being me.. i hate myself!!!

With Love,
Joanne.